'Holding a grudge is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die'
my friend commented on this saying: 'lol....instead, just give the poison to that person. surely he's the one who'll die...u'll bear no mo grudge...'
to which i was shocked, coz i had the same thought before (the 1st time i watched the vid: Omar Suleiman- Potent poison (grudge) n came across the quote was last year). And him having the same thought as i had made me think even harder.
However, after a deep thought on this matter, I came to a conclusion:
- No, even after the person died, you'll still bear grudge. The grudge is still there, inside you, and is still consuming your energy, your brain and you.
- Coz, if you were bearing no more grudge, then it would/could have not hurt you anymore. Yet you are still talking about it, telling people -directly or indirectly- how much you suffered from it (regardless of how true it was, how much pain it caused you)
- Coz if the grudge was no longer there, you would be a different person, you would act different, you would expect different things, your respond would be different.
- But dear friend, sorry to say, most of the time your action shows that you are the victim of the situation (which is totally not the mindset of a person who is free from grudge)
- The same mindset I had before.
- Blaming the people around you, the situation you went through, feeling being like a shit, priceless, being bothered by the surroundings shows how much grudge you have inside you, EVEN after the person died.
I guess, the only way to heal this spiritual illness is by having a spiritual treatment. And for you to receive such treatment, you need to be sincere, sincerely ready for such treatment. It all starts from the heart, from you.
I experienced (and still am experiencing) the same thing, being ill-treated by people around me since i was a kid, and let us not compare of who had the worst case, but my point is, unless you are enjoying every single minute of your life holding this grudge, you should in the most respectful manner let it go, not for the sake of them, but for the sake of you. And believe me, you'll feel even stronger.
And you, my dear friend, I know you can do it. You ARE strong :)
