How it truly effects your brain

Aku: Ya, aku tau aku boleh buat, tapi kenapa aku lambat sgt pick up. Lampi gila, Ya. Benda senang pun aku kena pikiaq lama. Awat Ya?

Yaya: Banyak tidoq. Hang tidoq pagi. Kurangkan tidoq.

Pelik

Pelik.
Bagaimana manusia boleh mengaku dirinya menganuti, mempercayai itu ini,
tapi
tak tahu
tak mahu mengambil tahu
malu untuk tahu
dengan lebih terperinci
tentang apa yang dianuti, dipercayainya.

Pelik.
Bagaimana manusia boleh terima
idea yang bahawasanya
musik untuk semua
tak kira kau kerja apa
menelaah buku apa
tapi wajib tahu
sehingga ke akar umbi

tapi bukan agama.
hanya untuk manusia 'terpilih', hanya untuk manusia tertentu.
Bila ditanya,
oh tak tahu,
bukan bidang aku,
sedangkan itu semestinya, tanpa ragu-ragu, bidang kita,
kerana itu cara hidup kita.

bagaimana kita boleh membiarkan diri kita jadi sebegitu bodoh.
mengikut menonong
sesuatu yang menentukan
siapa kita,
cara kita berfikir,
hala tuju kita,
fahaman kita,
tapi kita tak punya pengetahuan mendalam tentangnya.

dan aku,
jika aku berpegang pada suatu prinsip,
aku nak tahu hingga ke akar umbi.
aku tak suka ikut membuta tuli,
aku nak tahu
kenapa aku suka sesuatu itu,
dan kenapa aku benci sesuatu itu.

Bodohlah aku kalau aku serahkan kepada orang lain
untuk menentukan
apa yang harus ku percaya dan
apa yang harus ku benci.

Apa guna Allah bagi aku akal?

It's amazing to see how superbly intelligent people can be in the field of science and technology, economics, politics, history, how they can think critically, how they really use their brains. 

But when it comes to religion, of what you believe, they can be as childish as anything.

swallowing everything. lepas tangan. reading only what they want to believe, what they want to hear.

Where are your brains?

Is it so shameful to take your religion seriously, critically?

How stupid of you that you can think like that.

   

Solat, Salah, Beten

There's something inside you that determines wether:

• ... you'll perform it on time or not.
• ... you even concern performing it while travelling, especially with non-muslim friends.
• ... you understand the real purpose performing it.

It reflects who you are.

It reflects who I am.

What I learned here in Vienna

Dear Optimist and Pessimist,

while both of you were arguing wether the glass was half full or half empty,

I drank it.

Sincerely,

Opportunist 

Outlandish - A Mind Full of Whisper

Turun dari langit

Yaya call aku through skype. 

Quick introduction of Yaya: Budak aviation. Belajar di Aachen, Germany. kalau naik ICE (bullet train) ke Vienna, 9jam sampai.

Yaya: Huda, aku nak keluaq. aku dah pakai tudung, aku dah pack barang. Aku tak tau nak gi mana ja ni. Aku nak gi mana ni, Huda?

Aku: (setelah ternganga 3 saat) Woi, Ya! What da... Vienna, Ya, Vienna (sambil melawak)

Yaya: Ok. cepat tolong aku cari tiket.

Aku: (tenganga balik)

btw, Yaya bawak laptop, 

tanda dia memang serius nak pulun study sama-sama dengan aku.

ask yourself

aku  : Ya, cane ni ya, no motivation nk blaja...

Yaya: ni mufti menk kata 

it's not motivation that u need, what u need is desire...

aku  : Oh my God...

battle of graffiti

 Along a.k.a me

harapan. never loose hope. never.

stress abbauen

shut up!

 Abah is the best, in and out

 F30- my favourite dormitory when i was Form 4. The best. paling bising. paling sempoi. 

1) push yourself to the limit. 2) push the limit. 3) repeat step 1 and 2

damai

hud²

fight

 this was last 2 years when i suffered from pneumonia in vienna. lungenentzündung

malas. penyakit kronik

I hate it when people (inculding me) never get tired of complaining even klu benda tu kecik taik semut ja pon 

 UBAH DIRI

help!

iman :)

uda sayang awak iman. sangat-sangat.

here is what i have to say

sin

dont let the media brain wash you. if you want to change the world, change your mind. 

your mind 1st, then your attitude.

gain knowledge and be humble

stop complaining and start appreciating.

be thankful

dont be afraid.

get out and experience everything.

muntah

ya Rabbi...
seriously, aku tak tau berapa kuat aku akan jerit bila dah grad nanti...

simptom budak tension blajaq: 

aku xmau blajaq dah, nak kahwin trus. fullstop. kbai.

Couldn't agree more

A library is a hospital for the mind.

-Anonymous- 

We have a BIG problem here

'Holding a grudge is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die'

my friend commented on this saying: 'lol....instead, just give the poison to that person. surely he's the one who'll die...u'll bear no mo grudge...' 

to which i was shocked, coz i had the same thought before (the 1st time i watched the vid: Omar Suleiman- Potent poison (grudge) n came across the quote was last year). And him having the same thought as i had made me think even harder.

However, after a deep thought on this matter, I came to a conclusion: 

• No, even after the person died, you'll still bear grudge. The grudge is still there, inside you, and is still consuming your energy, your brain and you.
• Coz, if you were bearing no more grudge, then it would/could have not hurt you anymore. Yet you are still talking about it, telling people -directly or indirectly- how much you suffered from it (regardless of how true it was, how much pain it caused you)
• Coz if the grudge was no longer there, you would be a different person, you would act different, you would expect different things, your respond would be different.
• But dear friend, sorry to say, most of the time your action shows that you are the victim of the situation (which is totally not the mindset of a person who is free from grudge)
• The same mindset I had before.
• Blaming the people around you, the situation you went through, feeling being like a shit, priceless, being bothered by the surroundings shows how much grudge you have inside you, EVEN after the person died.

I guess, the only way to heal this spiritual illness is by having a spiritual treatment. And for you to receive such treatment, you need to be sincere, sincerely ready for such treatment. It all starts from the heart, from you. 

I experienced (and still am experiencing) the same thing, being ill-treated by people around me since i was a kid, and let us not compare of who had the worst case, but my point is, unless you are enjoying every single minute of your life holding this grudge, you should in the most respectful manner let it go, not for the sake of them, but for the sake of you. And believe me, you'll feel even stronger.

And you, my dear friend, I know you can do it. You ARE strong :)

Fitness! YOSH!

kau akan tahu 30min workout kau tu SANGAT effektif 

bila kau tidur atas katil, kau tak boleh nak kalih badan

bila kau berjalan kau boleh rasa otot mana yang sedang berfungsi

bila kau rasa perit nak turun naik tangga

bila bas dah sampai kau x boleh kejar

dan dan dan 

dalam banyak² kejadian yang aku dah xmampu nak tulis, 

bila kau nak pergi tandas malam² kau rasa azab yg teramat.

SAKIT GILA HOI! 

tapi berbaloi. hilang sakit buat lagi. Thanx NTC (Nike Training Club) Apps  B-) 

Geh weiter!

und wer hat das gesagt, dass du es nicht schaffen kannst?
egal wie langsam du gehst,
egal wie viel Mühe du geben musst,
egal wie viel Zeit du verbrauchst um es nachvollzuziehen,

Hauptsache, nicht stehen geblieben, nicht auf dem Boden festgeklebt,
du gehst weiter

Your fault

The world is never cruel. Never.

Why blame the world to begin with?

SATU - Makmal Organik

Praaanggg! 

Dalam makmal organik. 'Säulechromatografie' Hammam pecah.

Ruang kerja Hammam jauh sikit daripada tempat aku.

Aku perasan ekspresi muka dia. Aku faham perasaan dia.

Ekspresi muka tu akan terhasil daripada perasaan kau yang: 

1. Takut
2. Serba tak faham apa yang kau patut buat dalam makmal disebabkan penguasaan bahasa Jerman masih lagi lemah.
3. Kau rasa bodoh yang teramat.
4. Kau tahu yang lain tengah pandang kau, menghukum kau. Itu hobi rakyat Austria.
5. Kau tahu tiada siapa yang akan datang hulurkan bantuan kerana tak ada istilah 'kawan dikala duka' dalam kamus hidup mereka.
6. Kau tak akan dapat balik deposit perkakas makmal.
7. Panik
8. Kau risaukan markah praktikal kau.
9. Kau orang luar. Bukan orang Austria dan majoriti pelajar Bachelor ialah orang asal Austria. Kau orang asing.
10. Kau beragama islam. 
11. Kau tak tahu bila benda yang tengah kau lalui ni akan berakhir, atau paling kurang pun, bila benda ni akan jadi mudah sikit untuk kau.

Aku sendiri tak dapat nak tolong Hammam. Aku sendiri terkapai-kapai perlukan bantuan. Aku sendiri tak punya penguasaan tinggi dalam bahasa Jerman. Aku sendiri takut.

Ya.

Sangat takut.

Semalam, aku menangis masa nak prepare tugasan 'Chromatografie' ni. Aku dah Wiki, aku dah Google, aku dah tanya budak PhD pun, tapi aku masih tak boleh nak faham apa tu menatang 'Chromatografie'.

Kecut perut aku masuk makmal hari ni. Panik. Tanya orang? Ya, aku memang banyak bertanya. Aku dah tak da perasaan malu. Biar lah orang nak hukum Jerman aku kokak. Biarlah orang nak hukum aku bodoh. Aku dah tak kisah.

Walaupun sebenarnya, jauh jauh jauuuuuh di sudut hati aku, aku kisah, aku malu. Aku pun tahu malu. Aku pun manusia. Tapi aku anggap, itu cara aku turunkan ego aku. Kawal perasaan aku. Aku perlu rendahkan diri aku serendah-rendah yang mungkin. Untuk bertahan. To survive.

Dan dari situ aku kenal pasti siapa tu 'kawan' dan siapa tu 'homo-sapiens-only-and-nothing-more'. Dari situ aku boleh baca orang.

Dan aku tahu Hammam pun lalui perkara yang sama seperti aku, tapi mungkin lebih perit. Dia tak boleh berbahasa Inggeris. Dia hanya boleh bertutur dalam bahasa Arab atau Jerman. Dan Jerman dia waktu ni 10 kali lebih teruk daripada Jerman aku.

Tapi dia tabah. Aku nampak. Aku boleh baca daripada raut wajah dia. Orang Palestin memang sangat tabah. Sangat.

I wonder

Dulu, masa kecil²,
klu masuk tandas lupa baca doa,
sanggup keluar balik,
baca doa.

walaupun dah desperate habis nak terkencing, keluar jugak. baca.

terfikir... kenapa skrg dah besar dah x macam tu?

Poverty tells many stories

I've always wanted to work in media stream, movie making,

so that i can show, 

convey message;

contribute

to the world out there

and make all of us 

to finally

THINK !

CHANGE !

change.

change.

change.

zu Hause

I'm on my way back to where I started.

I come from heaven. And that's my home. 

Ich kann es nicht allein machen. Ich brauche gute Freunde, die mich unterstützen können und wollen.

change is a must.

Kau ada prinsip?

Pantang dicabar,
terus menyahut,
terus buat,
terus usaha,

bukan terus melatah :)

Ego

definisi aku

maksud matang tu adalah
kita tahu
bagaimana cara kita 'handle' ego kita
bila ianya tercabar

semua orang ada ego
tak semua tahu 'handle', kawal, kuasai ego sendiri.

Danke Khaulah for the support

The Dua' made at tahajjud is like an arrow which does not miss its target.

-Imam As-Shafie'-

Mein Ziel, Mein Traum, Mein Herz

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma- which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

-Steve Jobs-

Mein Held

No amount of guilt can change the past, and no amount of worrying can change the future.

-Umar Ibn Al-Khattab-

Assalamualaikum, Frieden sei mit dir

Every time when ever I wanted to end our conversation, I always almost said this:

'As...'

I hope the time will come, when I'm able to greet you like how I greet my other brothers and sisters.
Please.

ist das nicht süß?

Intan adalah antara orang yang telah berjaya buat aku solat di awal waktu.

hampir setiap hari.

danke tan.

Was wil ich?

strive for what ever you want, what ever you aim for,

'coz we live only once.

Terkesima

there are things in this world
that u wish they would happen.
u whisper it only in your heart
not wanting to utter the words

fear that they might be impossible,
never to happen.

and yet, they appear one-by-one,
right before your eyes.

For truly, He hears even the deepest sincere whisper of your heart.  

Die richtige, wahre Verskalung

Only when you let your heart be belonged to Him,
you'll feel free.

Berjangkit

1) tan, aku nak puasa esok.
ok. aku pun lah. (medium: Skype)

2) mlm tu tiba² khaulah sibuk sembang kata nak qiyam n puasa kat whatsapp.
diana nk jd tukang kejut. (medium: Whatsapp)

3) kol 5pg
huda, ni diana ni, bgn wei
ok, danke. (medium: Voip)

4) tan, bangun. sahur tan, sahur.
ha... ok, danke huda. (medium: Viber)

5) farid subuh.
lg 20' subuh sini.
ok, sempat nk niat n telan ayaq paip (medium: Facebook)

6) esok tu
kau dah bgn huda?
da... qiyam syera. sahur.
hahahaha ok. (medium: Line)

Wolf

masa kecil² dulu.
abah out station.
yam tidur atas katil dgn ummi.
aku n iman tidur bawah, atas lantai dgn sleeping bag.
dok sembang kencang mcm mak nenek.

then ummi kata
ssssshhhhh diam!

still sembang kencang.

ummi ketuk katil berkali-kali.
ha.. ha.. wolf ketuk pintu balcony.
siapa xtidur, kena tidur kat luar dgn wolf.

semua cuak. diam. terus tidur.

es gibt nichts hier in Wien außer viel Geduld zu haben

Encik Salleh,
boleh tak nak pindah TU Deutschland?
terima kasih

thank you, Allah

Intan and Kristina is a gift from God

not a good combination

pulon stadi
lapaq
xmau masak

Good job, guys!

When creativity meets talent

Terima kasih

5 org Janissari pernah bagitau aku

Belajar ni macam travel. Kau jalan.
Then, kau akan stuck dekat border.
Masa kat situ sakit. Kau akan rasa nak patah balik. Tak mau sambung travel dah.
Then, kau lepas border. Teruskan travel.
Rasa best.
Dan kau akan teringat balik travel kau tu.


Kau ni sekarang tengah stuck dekat border.

dan ya, aku percaya korg

p/s: it was such a pleasure to travel with you guys. May Allah bless u all. Ameen

Habih meta !

the desire of not to be ashamed of your work.

Jawapan aku yang ke-3

Kau,
marah
mengadu
menangis
mengeluh
kerana banyaknya masalah

tak tertangan
satu-satu datang

kau tanya
kenapa banyak sangat ni?
kenapa habis satu-satu datang?

aku tanya kau
kau banyak masalah,
masalah pilih kau,
atau
kau tu sendiri yg bermasalah?