The sinking boat

'Kau kena buat research. dan of course, istikharah tu penting.'

It's like you are in a boat. 

And the boat is sinking. 

And you keep holding on to the pole. 

And as you realize that the water is filling the boat rapidly, you climb the pole. 

To the highest peak, hoping that you will not drown. 

But you forget, it's a sinking boat. 

How much higher can you climb?

You know you have to let go off the pole, dive into the ocean and start swimming.

You know you can swim, but you're not sure how good. 

You're afraid.

You don't know.

And with every thought that comes inside your mind, 

with every detail that you take into consideration,

the clock is ticking.

The boat is sinking.

You know to hold on to the pole is a wrong choice.

Or at least you think so.

Or no, you just don't know.

And you know that you can swim.

But is it THE right choice to swim?

You don't want a choice. You're tired of any random choice.

You want the choice. The. Let it be the right one.

So, you still are holding on to the pole. Half drown.

But you forget,

by choosing to swim, 

you may not know what lies ahead,

you may not even survive the ocean,

but it's an indicator

of how much trust you've put on Him

to let go off the pole and dive.

There are so many ways on how to cross the ocean. 

Sailing a boat is just one of them. 

Ya Rabb, may architecture be the right one.